I've Been Tagged
A friend asked that I write five facts about myself. This is very difficult since I am a very open person. There is not much I keep to myself. But, here we go. . . .
1. The older I get the more I want companionship rather than marriage. Although, I want the chance to wear the white dress and be the center of attention, I could wear a white dress and throw myself a party at 40 years old.
2. I was molested as a child. Through therapy and the passage of time, I have been able to move forward and not let this one sick act negatively affect my life. To be honest, I don't believe my soul will find peace until the perpetrator is dead. He has poisoned his body with drugs and alcohol for years. So, peace may come sooner than I thought.
3. I no longer want to study for my dissertation, but I am not a quitter. About 15 years ago, I was pledging a little sister organization, Alpha Angel. I quit the pledge process because I didn't feel the need to jump through hoops for some men I hardly knew. I wasn't really going to get anything out of it. My boyfriend told me I was a quitter. I knew it was the right decision for me. I haven't quit anything since, unless it put my health in danger. . . . like teaching high school kids at a public school in the hood. I could have gone on disability for mental anguish, I think.
4. I love hanging out with my girlfriends. But, I feel most comfortable around my male friends. I trust them more than any woman.
5. Now, I have had several boyfriends and seem to always find men who want a taste of Amber. That said, just once I want a man (who is not into big women) to find me sexy and beautiful. I've gone out with men who have tried to look past my big frame, but they just can't. I get those comments, such as "You have such a beautiful face" or "You have such a beautiful spirit". Just once I want a man to say, "You're body is rockin'!". I know it's superficial, but secretly, I want to be obejectified one time.
Those are my five facts!
I believe that giving voice to such personal facts, whether good or bad, empowers me to make positive changes in me life. And, hopefully encourages someone else to give voice to five facts about themselves.
Is that you?
Be Blessed!
1. The older I get the more I want companionship rather than marriage. Although, I want the chance to wear the white dress and be the center of attention, I could wear a white dress and throw myself a party at 40 years old.
2. I was molested as a child. Through therapy and the passage of time, I have been able to move forward and not let this one sick act negatively affect my life. To be honest, I don't believe my soul will find peace until the perpetrator is dead. He has poisoned his body with drugs and alcohol for years. So, peace may come sooner than I thought.
3. I no longer want to study for my dissertation, but I am not a quitter. About 15 years ago, I was pledging a little sister organization, Alpha Angel. I quit the pledge process because I didn't feel the need to jump through hoops for some men I hardly knew. I wasn't really going to get anything out of it. My boyfriend told me I was a quitter. I knew it was the right decision for me. I haven't quit anything since, unless it put my health in danger. . . . like teaching high school kids at a public school in the hood. I could have gone on disability for mental anguish, I think.
4. I love hanging out with my girlfriends. But, I feel most comfortable around my male friends. I trust them more than any woman.
5. Now, I have had several boyfriends and seem to always find men who want a taste of Amber. That said, just once I want a man (who is not into big women) to find me sexy and beautiful. I've gone out with men who have tried to look past my big frame, but they just can't. I get those comments, such as "You have such a beautiful face" or "You have such a beautiful spirit". Just once I want a man to say, "You're body is rockin'!". I know it's superficial, but secretly, I want to be obejectified one time.
Those are my five facts!
I believe that giving voice to such personal facts, whether good or bad, empowers me to make positive changes in me life. And, hopefully encourages someone else to give voice to five facts about themselves.
Is that you?
Be Blessed!
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